Last Saturday, the 22nd march 2014, I attended the anti racism & anti fascism march & rally at Glasgow's Georges
square.
It was a fresh sunny
day & there was a good turn out, for
the rally, & I can say with all honesty,that the many speakers I
listened to with interest,
councilors,
human rights activists, trade unionists & miscellaneous others, had a
profound impact on me, although perhaps not the impact I expected, or that it left me
with, feelings & emotions I find not easy to relate, as I write this blog
at 5.18am after another disturbed & restless sleepless night.
There was
a great deal of talk about the effects of current immigration policies and the blame game played by government that
focus's on immigrant workers & asylum seekers in regard of employment
& housing issues & any kind of rise in crime statistics.
There was
emotive & moving descriptions of dawn raids & arrests of asylum
seekers, dragged off in the night to detention centers that amounts to modern
day equivalents of Nazi concentration camps.
Police
& establishment corruption and the tragic & unjust treatment of the Lawrence family, after the murder of Steven Lawrence, were all spoken of with
passion, in relation to human rights violations and abuse,
and the
treatment of people in police custody, & or, in relation to unverified suspicion of crime, & stop & search procedures, as well as discrimination's, were all, correctly, addressed.
There was reference to the despicable austerity policies,imposed on the nation that target primarily the vulnerable, the disabled & the poor.
Employment,
health & social care, the bedroom tax, cuts to front-line services & the privatization of the NHS, were all addressed, as were the effects of cuts to legal aid & advisory services on the poor.
There was
mention of the frightening & concerning rise of overtly fascist political groups & movements in Ukraine, Hungary, Greece & other parts of Europe,
as well as the UK prime ministers frightening role as broker in arms deals,
that see rich totalitarian governments & dictatorships in the middle east &
other destinations armed with weapons of great mass destruction &
killing potential, weapons that all to
often, find there way into the hands of unidentified extremist & mercenary groups who rage devastating wars on their own people, nations that have poor
records in all areas of human rights & issues of sensitive, discriminatory
justice.
&
There was well justified references to mainstream media propaganda &
misinformation in the press including the role of BBC reporting with bias on political & human rights issues as the
establishments tool of manipulation & mind control, all of which I whole heatedly agreed with.
In fact i
think i can safely state, that there was absolutely nothing said by any of those addressing the crowd that i
did not agree with, and without a doubt
they were all competent & passionate speakers on the issue of
discrimination & human rights, many referring to the need to raise awareness
to these very important issues we are all facing. The words
"solidarity" & "comrades" were frequently repeated by the speakers, as might be expected at such an
event.
"
Social media is a great tool,"
"Talk
about these issues of human rights abuse,racism, & fascism on facebook,
twitter & other networking
sites,"
"Spread
the word, Raise awareness "
was the
cry of more than 1 speaker, and rightly so.
However,
sadly i must admit, as i smiled ,my face twitched behind my mask of normality,
my heart filled with a sinking sorrowful feeling, as I stood there alone in the
crowd thinking,
I ALREADY
HAVE, TO LITTLE & NO AVAIL...
as my personal experience of
human rights violations & abuse by fascist of the establishment crept round
my cranium, dragging my spirit down in a selfish moment of self indulgence, haunting memories of sleepless nights of almost 7 years of trauma & mental
health hell...
& my
own struggle for justice that has fell largely on deaf ears & indifference of mostly all, including friends & family, who tell me I am wasting my time
seeking justice, no one cares, I ain't gonna get it and I should move on...
easier said than done, believe me , i'v tried.
So there
I stood, on a sunny afternoon, in the busy town square of my native Glasgow, surrounded by hundreds of others, of apparently kindred spirit & motivation, feeling isolated, unsupported, & totally alone feeling almost like i wanted
to scream as i struggled to hold back a deluge of tears of self pity, yeah how self-centered i am, I know.
In
reflection, I guess that's the biggest impact
last Saturdays rally had on me... that feeling that my struggle has been
regarded as one of self indulgence & self pity...
and i can
assure you its not an impact that sits easy on my shoulders, for that was never
ever my motivation to keep going in the battle for justice, that feeling of
selfish self indulgence, that "me" factor, was circumstantial in
relation to human right issues, it was was never my motivation in relation to
related issues or involvement /activism, its just something that happened, a consequential, i would have preferred not to have had experienced, but perhaps
my biggest educator and yes, it did come to drive me on & keep going these
last 5-6 years.
I ain't
going to go over the all the details of my own experience in relation to the
crimes against me, the abuse & violation of my rights, the treatment I have received & the effects it has had on my mind body & spirit, its already
well documented on my former Facebook pages in notes , ( which I can no
longer access ,)
It is ,as
I said, documented in my blogs, on my Google page, in my poetry & art project and via the 86+K tweets i have posted these past 6-7 years in relation
to human rights, metal health issues, discrimination, inequalities & inadequacies within the health social welfare & justice system, in my
attempts to raise awareness of human rights issues, mental & social health,
welfare & social policy issues, because, & somewhat ironically, health
& social care promotion was the career path I was following, the course of
study I had chosen to hopefully find a career in when my degree was complete ,
it was the field I wanted work in as a social health & welfare care
provider when I completed my university studies, & it was strangely, the root cause that initiated the
financial issues , distress & everything else that led to the violations,
abuse & crime of violence (ABH) I was to have perpetrated against me, both
in my home & by & in every office of public care & legal provision
I came into contact with thereafter in my attempts to seek fair treatment &
justice.
I feel its fair to suggest that my blog
publications & tweet history will
clearly reflect that although, yes, I have sought to raise awareness and get
support to have my own case addressed fairly & justly according to my human
rights & law, my attempts to raise awareness in regard of human rights
issues has not been primarily self serving, but a genuine concern & belief
in the need for the human rights of all people be adhered to, that health & social welfare care is an issue that affects us all, globally, & that my
beliefs & motivation are born out of
that fundamental belief that the
human rights of all need to be respected & addressed without
discrimination, & without inequalities & inadequacies that reflect a
system that sees the poor & vulnerable & the "different"
treated with disdain & neglect & indeed indifference, while those with
wealth & status receive privileged treatment from a global justice system
that serves primarily the rich & powerful.
I am as I
have said many times in the past, representation of that 1 in 4 of the population whose rights are abused.
I am the
mother who cry's herself to sleep at night worrying about how she is going to manage to continue to feed,
cloth & house her children,...
I am the
father who opens his vain in the job-center in a desperate plea for help & support that goes unheeded,...
I am the
teenager who hangs them self in their bedroom as a result of cruel & nasty jibes & bullying from people who don't even know me...
I am the
man who tries & tries to be heard then looses the plot & goes on a
shooting spree killing innocent bystanders and close associates cos no one would listen or give me the support i need & sought...
I am the
prisoner abused & wounded detained
in a cell for endless hours, ignored, whose rights are violated.
I am the
disabled person who lost their home, their support system & died alone
after swallowing all the prescribed meds in the cabinet washed down with a
bottle of vodka cos they just couldn't take anymore of the stress , worry & mental trauma...
I am
everyone of you who deserves to to have their voice heard & who is ignored
and abused by an establishment & system that is meant to have a duty of care
towards me.
I am June
MacKendrick, daughter, mother,granny, sister, friend, colleague & stranger... a woman from Glasgow who's human rights were abused & who failed in all attempts to seek justice and raise awareness of human rights abuses.
a human
being silenced...
a statistical reminder of a world that doesn't care...
I am Chelsea Manning
I am
Nabeel Rajab
I am
Barnett Brown
I am
Jeremy Hammond
I am
Michael Hastings
I am
Arron Swartz
I am
Julian Assange ...
& I
dedicate this blog entery to them, the activist & message carriers punished, incarcerated & or murdered by a corrupt establishment & hierarchy
system of the NWO who seek to control us all by abusing & decimating our
human rights & freedoms.